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Name: terri
Birthday: 6/25/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: hanging out with my friends, music, food, God-though i havent been doing what i should lately... need to get to church, meeting new people, being myself
Expertise: making people laugh with my dorkness
Occupation: student/athlete
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AIM:  simpledork182
Member Since:
6/6/2006
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| so a lot has happened as of late. the guy ive been seeing for the past 4 months moved down to baltimore. he did it for a job opportunity but id be lying if i said i had nothing to do with it. i told him not to though. was afraid hed regret it. so far hes been down here in an apartment for about a week now. ive stayed with him everynight i could. roomate status.. went to shit. i took my tv to his apartment and apparently thats the worst thing to do. ya know.. to take YOUR OWN tv. but whatever. now shes starting shit talking about me behind my back making stuff up and running her mouth. and today she went to my ra. well bring it on. the little bitch can just be put in her place b/c i cant stand her. havent been able to for awhile now but was trying to keep the peace but if thats the way she wants to play it thats cool w/ me. should be a fun run. and whats my ra going to do?? take away my visitation rights?? oooooh.. big whoppie. bruce is the only one thats comes to visit me anyways. and now i can just go to his apartment. so i really am not sweating this. so i have a meeting at 745 on thurs with her. should be interesting. too bad my roomates too much of a pussy to talk to me and deal with it herself. that and shes a kniving lil hypocritical pathelogical liar. wow.. i dont think ive ever talked this much trash on someone. i kinda feel bad for it. though i shouldnt.. college is getting to me. i cant take this highschool drama b/s anymore.. and people said college was different. thats what i get for going to an all chicks college i guess. oh well.. f them all. (most) hehe.. just gotta stick to my own life i suppose. not like i need her or any of these chicks here. some are good to have. but not need. yeah.. so i guess not a lot has changed. i think i have. baltimore has made me.. more potty mouth. and more.. distrusting. and more hating of chicks. maybe more independent.. maybe not. oh well.. | | |
| im still alive im alright and i'll be fine | | |
| Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause it’s all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it
Nooo
I can’t wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it’s a shame that we got to spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
But I think she’s leaving
Ooh man she’s leaving
I don’t know what else to do
(I Can’t go on not loving you)
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again yeah
And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it
Nooo
I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keeps playing in my head
Over and over again
Playing my head
Over and over again
Ohh
I think she’s leaving
Ooh man she’s leaving
I don’t know what else to do
(I Can’t go on not loving you)
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo
(Now that I’ve realized that I’m going down
From all this pain you’ve put me through
Every time I close my eyes I lock it down oh
I can’t go on not loving you)
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo
Over and Over again
Over and Over again
Cause it’s all in my head
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| I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
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| so we're crossing out the orange part of the last entry b/c its hard to be in love w/ someone when you know things will never work out. and that theyre not going to "settle" for you am i mad that only like.. 8 of my friends even acknowledged that it was my bday monday?? am i surprised?? i guess i shouldnt be. but you know when you prepare yourself for a let down, and youre expecting it.. but when it happens, it still hurts. some people actually did surprise me that they didnt say anything. heck, my own freaking stepdad didnt even tell me happy bday. i also had an interview that day and he didnt even tell me good luck. and then i find out from my mum that he told her that she better get me on birth control. so yeah.. how does it feel to have your own stepdad calling you a whore?? like crap.. in fact, he just spent like an hour or so b/sing w/ me over jobs. thats the first time hes talked to me since at least sunday. if he even talked to me sunday. but hes being nice to me today. surprisingly. but the people that matter and care put forth effort to wish me a happy bday. and i hung out w/ 3 of them. so that made me happy. who cares if the rest are all assholes things are looking up for terris life. i have a job now. or pretty much. thanks to bruce. i pretty much owe him big time. im getting to spend time w/ my friends that i care about. parents cant say too much about where i go or what i do. though they try. and i let them seeing as how im still under their roof. i start classes aug. 29th. someones beginning to change my mind about how untrustworthy and worthless the human race is. but we'll see how this goes theres so many people id like to see b4 i leave in the fall. in TWO months. but it seems like people are too busy w/ me. and the ones that arent, i might not get to see b/c of working. so yeah.. thats me in a nutshell <3 | | |
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